It would always
Be between us.
Hardly ever neutral
Scalding or freezing
Fighting or loving
Ruptures of trust
Rebuilt the sacrifice
reframed it renamed it
our fools’ gold paradise
naively waiting for a sign
a different ending.
The happiness lasted throughout
underneath and despite the arguments
was us in bitter sweet love
the natural connection
We were both so sensitive
to judgement and rejection
Every action reaction
rebirthed from damnation
survived beyond last rope
meandering like a ribbon
of sunrise river
like a phoenix we reset hope.
Athena vs Mars
With veins bursting out
Incredible Hulk time
She Hulk sublime
Split second adrenaline
We couldn’t control ourselves
All the suppressed rage
Force fed religion
signs we understood
outwitting persecution of naturalness.
We sang a sweet parody of Kumbaya
sang laughing duet serenades of our names
instead of praising aristocratic hierarchy,
It was an inside joke to know
the old time Christian songs
Our odd beautiful connection was strong.
We volcanoed like double Vesuvius
Every second of love disintegrated
We eradicated ourselves in angry launches of hurt.
Making up was a hypnotic marathon
As if we couldn’t stop
Hurting and loving
Not as in S & M rape perversion
He was wisely not into that nonsense.
Our mutual hurt was linked to pride
The scarcity fear of being loved
Afraid of when it will stop
So we forced it to.
Bi-polar has a super power
To amuse confuse use
increasing triple fold with spirits.
He knew the chase before starting
Not enough time for all that I want for you
He played INXS while packing
I knew then his heart was true
Despite the violence he was suppressing
So much like my rolling stone papa
So much like my child-like mama too
and my sister and brother all rolled up into one
half Dark Crystal
The funniest strangest
most original twin
That I’m so grateful to have loved.
Things don’t have to work out to be meaningful
in the end we’re friends although
I’ll never see him again in this lifetime
Star crossed lovers are fated
At least there’s an afterworld
It’s better to have loved
the post-gnostic ghostly druid
burning man sexy poly nerd
that I would’ve laid down my life for
so foolishly self-sacrificial.
Failures can have infinite value
for those that can see
their true irreplaceable worth.