I think I broke
my ability to cry
it’s gone
I cried often and too long
during childhood trauma
into adulthood drama.
Now the sad faucet is locked
marked for oblivion.
Lost causes and heartache
have broken my wings
sound and vibrance
lost into a thousand
ten thousand hundred million
orbital things asking what am I?
Super tiny why
sparkling in the mud trying
macro mica
mind space
magical opera.
I am here
Nowhere
Now here
Lost in desert perfection
parched with no smiling
a dry spell wishing well
trying to remind myself
recognize the self-wonder
in liquid rainbow tears
streaming anonymously
sliding bliss weeping
a kaleidoscope of years seeping
waterfalling, rain breathing, bleeding.
Tears hold lost soul memories
wobbling spherical into the astral
as love light rose
in waterlight diamonds.
Such a beautiful articulation of emotions. This truly was poetry in motion. Thanks for sharing such a wonderful post, according to your convenience please do read some of my writings, would love to know what you think about them. 😊❤️
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Thank you Sidharth🙂❤️
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Oh…sad poem but with hope?
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Most of my writing is that combination in various forms.
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Beautiful, Judy ❤
I, too, "cried often and too long / during tortured childhood / into troubled adulthood." Then, years later, while I struggled to raise my sons alone in Brazil, I realized one day that I had not cried in years.
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Thank you Rosaliene, it gives me comfort that you understand too. I think we must have reset your inner coping system, maybe became desensitized in a way. I recently read an article that described a connection between very sensitive/empathic people and a link to depression; that makes sense to me. It also makes sense to be a writer or activist, it’s like a predisposed calling to be acutely aware of suffering/injustice/feelings. I now involuntarily cry (my eyes get watery) when I laugh, strange how it reversed, as if my tears needed to be utilized somehow.
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Love this ❤
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Thanks🙂
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