We were a family of child soldiers
including our parents
who we emotionally raised.
It’s blasphemous to say the truth
against parental authority?
The word itself clings like a lisp
like Daffy Duck’s slobbery bill
spitting all over the place.
We were a tribe of orphans all of us
were a hostaged family for a reason
I think we chose ourselves and miseries together.
Lessons advance us toward understanding
Torture ends in eventual salvation
That’s what I surmised from Sunday School
Slaves endure horrific injustice
to gloriously rise higher than before.
We are not gods despite what they whispered
We are not Demi-gods either
New age is a religion it’s not just spirituality
I should know, I’ve been there done that
I was an insider pro at it:
Iching, astrology, tarot, chakra meditation
I was into it like a science
I was very good at it
because I believed in it
but now I no longer support it.
because I feel manipulated by it.
It it it it….
I’m reshuffling the mystery circuit
I’ll always love the twinkling beauty of crystals
but not for belief in their branded attributes.
Crystals and stones are full of the beauty of nature
that’s what I love about them period.
“They’re from the Earth, you shouldn’t throw them away.” ~said my friend, Karin.
I was contemplating casting them away
I was ignited, in shock and despondent.
I had purged my collection of films.
I threw them away when I realized what they were hiding
propaganda CIA backed and financed?
My landlord hinted or winked or had a tick
he was leering at my garbage
but it’s none of his business what I let go of.
I’m in midlife crisis mode but I feel calm
potato head shaped body now
I’m not what I was before
but I don’t want to take up jogging
My twenty year old self remains eternally inside
Waiting for death’s kind release
from this consummate ego ride
slough off this vain costume of life.
Death is another journey and Life is what we’re living for
Advancement is not for free
riding past remorse into obliteration.
Chose your destination by choosing sides.
If you say you’re a Christ follower
but you ignore Jesus’s teaching
Hypocrisy won’t save you.
I’m not an official Christian
although I follow Jesus’s teaching
I just try to do my best
and I’m not afraid of dying
I just don’t want a painful death.
We can take only what we came to handle.
I bet we’d all adore life, if we didn’t have it anymore.
I bet every suicide was regretted afterwards
I have no proof, just intuition.