Poem: Lioness Mother

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My mother was a lioness
with words for teeth
claws of venom speech
She said I did it wrong
I wasn’t strong
I didn’t do enough to protect her
with my hands as a shield
to cover her head
from father’s slap brick lunges.

Why does that sting remain forever?
She said I didn’t protect her
not enough
stains my brain
sinking abyss of correction
cortex tunnels vibrate
a lifetime of depression.
Her casual criticism
murdered my trust again.
Perfectionist Alpha Mama.
She’s gone.
Why am I still angry?

22 Comments

    1. Thank you, Christopher. I love/d my mom very much and she loved me as much but we didn’t understand each other. She was an Amazon and I was a leprechaun in comparison haha! 🍀 Life has too many tragic disconnects but I hope she understands me now that she isn’t in this sad world.

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  1. Same as above… heart-wrenching, and so very backwards of a parent to expect that from a child. You must be a very resilient being dear J. Well written poem 💗

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      1. Yes, beautiful comment for sure. :)) I think mine was not so well-written! 😅 Definitely did not express compassion towards your mom, though I do feel compassion for her. I think most parents are truly doing their best, based on their own resources and backgrounds, sadly inadequate though it may seem at times.

        Sometimes I don’t allow myself enough time to word things properly. There is a lot going on at the moment. Apologies, please forgive, and much love. :)) 💗 xoxoxo

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      2. Oops! It was a typo that I wrote “my comment” 🤗, darn spell check! I feel guilty when I write “negative” poems about my mom or my family of origin but as a writer I can’t censor the bigger picture. We humans are complicated, not one dimensional. I love my mom and to me love is seeing things clearly and loving despite everything. I agree that circumstances shake us and we’re all doing our best. I’m definitely messed up in certain ways and can’t blame my family for that, can only try to heal and be what I came here for. I like and appreciate your perception, Nadine. Thank you my friend 💖🙏😘

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  2. Thank you for sharing!!… perhaps hold on to the wonderful moments and leave the rest to fade away…. “Holding on to bitterness is like taking poison and expecting the other person to die” (Author Unknown)… 🙂

    Until we meet again..
    May your troubles be less
    Your blessings be more
    And nothing but happiness
    Come through your door
    (Irish Saying)

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    1. I’m sure you have good intentions but I didn’t ask for your opinion on how to live life. Writing is my therapy, if I censored it or tried to make all my poems positive or uplifting, it would be false and it wouldn’t be helpful to me. I don’t consider myself bitter, just affected by the past. If my poetry upsets you, please unfollow my blog.

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      1. I am sorry that I upset you, merely sharing my thoughts, not telling you how you should write, only your heart can do that.. your poetry does not upset me… will not unfollow but I will refrain from commenting in the future…. 🙂

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      2. I accept your apology. I’ve finally learned to speak up and call people out when I’m being told how to feel or think. My blog is like a journal and if I had to censor my thoughts and experiences then it would be a false and meaningless blog. I value art/poetry as a medium to convey personal experience and perception and that is not up for public debate. The point of the end line was a rhetorical musing not an actual question.

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