“Anytime of year, you can find it here”…”We are all just prisoners here, of our own device.”
The Eagles” Hotel California
This song is so genius and creepy, but I liked it when I was a child. I didn’t understand the lyrics then. I think it has a haunting quality, it’s my official anthem for my time here in California both good and bad. Cults were birthed here for a reason, it’s a Mecca for radical people. The SF Bay Area broke my heart and spent my youth. I came here right after college. I was completely naive and was still a Christian then. Despite it all I know I will miss it, just like an addiction.
My advice to you, especially if you’re young is don’t come here. This place will drain your heart. Decades will pass in one year here and you will fall deeply asleep. When you wake up you’ll look in the mirror at an unrecognizable face with long, silver-grey hair. This place is amnesia, dreams and nightmares. Someone once told me that the San Francisco Bay Area is a place of healing but if you stay too long, it has the opposite effect. I overstayed my welcome I suppose. When I leave in a few months, I’ll leave with tears in my eyes 🥲. Life is but a dream.