Poem: God Gave Us Everything + My 2nd Testimony + Awake not Woke Music Videos

“As I read and reread all the non-Christian or anti-Christian accounts of the faith, from Huxley…, a slow and awful impression gradually and graphically grew upon my mind – the impression that Christianity must be an extraordinary thing. It was attacked on all sides and for all contradictory reasons.” ~G. K. Chesterton

https://www.goodreads.com/quotes/tag/chesterton
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I’ve lost my audience from 50-70 likes per post to 25-30 likes, down to 10-15 likes and now I’m lucky if I get 5 likes per post, 😳! I think my previous audience probably felt betrayed when I switched the focus of my blog. I’m not necessarily smarter than anyone else, but I’ve always questioned authority. I’ve always been an outsider. I think that’s why I got red-pilled while my friends and colleagues reinforced the status quo.

“My WordPress algorithm is broke, because I fight against the Woke”

Seoul Sister 🌸

I can’t entirely blame WP for censorship, I realize that I can be very snarky in my posts, very know-it-all, and I can be spiteful in the way I describe celebrities and politicians that I dislike, very judgmental and mocking towards them, I apologize for that. I’ll probably do it again 😬I’m a work in process, God’s not finished guiding me. I believe that God has great compassion for us and is waiting for us to return to innocence, trusting and believing in Him.

I started this blog around 2018, a few months after I’d published a short memoir story in an anthology. I wanted to keep up with writing and build an audience. I was giving poetry readings then and was even selected as an “Immigrant Artist” 😅 for the NYFA, they liked my woke voice, haha! I championed every minority, LGBTQ+, BLM etc (I had no clue). I was almost entirely a different creature then. I was red-pilled slowly, it took a few rounds of truth media investigation, over several years actually, (cognitive dissonance is powerful). I recently deleted not all, but most of my previously popular posts. It was my way to detox from social justice warrior, liberalism. I felt a little wince of pain as I pressed delete, all the time and energy gone in just a few clicks. A rare few I saved as drafts, still contemplating if I should keep them. I wrote about:

  • Cultural Appropriation
  • Inclusion/Lack of Diversity (specifically Asians) in Hollywood films
  • Feminism/Sexism against women (this was before the trans movement erased the definition of “woman”)
  • Metaphyical poetry/New Age spirituality
  • Memoir stories of unprocessed childhood trauma (which I now realize was a kind of permanent victimhood, lack of personal accountability and narcissism)
  • Memoir poetry about lost loves/failed romance (because I always choose rebellious, “bad boy musicians” thinking I could save them with my New Age positivity and codependency).

I think I pleased my audience with non-controversial fluff, privileged whining and wokeness. I fit into the liberal mold because I was fully indoctrinated from decades of social conditioning via television/media/pop culture and US public schools. I actively worked for the liberal agenda in public libraries all of my life, (my first job during High School was in a library). I used to love libraries until the day I was fired (a few days before my birthday) by the Oakland Public Library for not submitting to mandated medical rape and for being a whistleblower.

Seoul Sister c2022, (please don’t use my artwork without permission), this is artwork from 2012 that survived the purge. I want to start drawing and painting again.

I don’t care anymore about the “conspiracy theory” label, I’ll wear it like a badge of honor. I don’t care about the right-wing conservative label, or the ridiculous TERF and white supremacist labels either because I’m none of those things. I’m a child of God and I’m using my tiny platform here to sing! truth and praise to God, who never abandoned me even when I dismissed His ultimate sacrifice (Jesus).

“Am I like a mosquito buzzing in their ear, reminding them of what they secretly fear?”

Seoul Sister 🌸

You can choose to believe or not in God’s grace (Jesus) but when you turn your life towards God your life will change. The things you used to love, the things you were addicted to, will no longer have the same power over you because you can see the slavery strings. I stepped out of the Matrix—I no longer need the They Live sunglasses. Once awakened, you can’t go back to sleep.

I threw away my music collection, metaphysical books, Hollyweird dvds/blu rays in 2016 and I don’t regret it at all. I threw away my expensive tarot cards, new age books/paraphernalia and the intricate metaphysical artwork that I created. They were beautiful but toxic. It was a true sacrifice, (I’d once cherished those things), but I can always create new poetry and visual art so I’ve lost nothing. Well actually I did lose long-time friends over Covid-19, the world’s gone mad :(.

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I’m not here to condemn non-believers, I’m here to testify to the opening of my eyes and heart to God. God wouldn’t let me go further into self-destruction. I wasn’t at ground zero, but life doesn’t have to be crumbling to be miserable; living on auto-pilot is mental slavery. I’ve ended my worship of the World, Hollywood and Music Industry Magicians, I’m done with their trickery and illusions. There’s no need to admire or envy those sell-out puppets.

“They never cared about us, they just care about their NWO bucks”

Seoul Sister 🌸

My mother always prayed for me every night, to return to Christianity, (I left my faith after college). I never stopped believing in God, but I got deluded with New Age philosophy. I withheld spiritual peace from my mom for all of my adulthood, thinking I was right. I’m so sorry Mama. She’s in heaven now, free of cancer pain and the burdens of this life. I love you forever Mama, thank you for loving me so faithfully. Your prayers were answered finally. It wasn’t God’s fault or yours, that I took so long to leave my cage of stupidity.

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I want to state clearly that I don’t hate gay people, I don’t hate trans people. I don’t hate any people, (except for literal demons, yes they do it exist)—but it’s not my job (or right) to act as a judge in anyone else’s life. God doesn’t hate us either. Whoever preaches that is wrong. We’re all precious to God. The Bible says, “Judge not, lest ye be judged,” I agree with the grace of humility. I’m far from perfect. I have very little to be proud of in my life, but it’s not over yet. Until I’m dead, I hope to keep learning, there’s always more to understand. The best choice I made was to be a mother. I’m thankful that God gave me that chance to love another human being unselfishly. Children are not a burden, they’re a miraculous gift from God.

I believe that sin is ignorance, delusion, following deceit (the original deceiver was Lucifer). Repentance is about waking up, realizing the deception and turning away from it. It’s not that complicated.

God gave us everything 
but we gave Him disgrace,
We’re the ones
that trashed this place.
We’re the ones
that spit in His face,
rejected God’s
intelligence and grace.
Now we act like we can
dominate space
in self-appointed Godhood.
God seems gone without a trace
but He exists here as True Love.
I pray for the human race
to finally wake up.
I’m not trying to debase
but we need to heal what’s fucked up.

Seoul Sister 🌸

I usually don’t listen to rap music because of the glorification of violence and misogyny that used to pervade that genre. But these artists’ lyrics focus on God’s message. I didn’t realize there’s a whole genre of independent rap artists that spread God’s message vs Satan’s. I don’t care if I sound corny, I think corny is beautiful not jaded, that’s why it’s mocked in our fallen world.

Thank you for reading this long post.

Controlled:

Bioweapon:

False Teachers:

Empire of Lies:

Thank you for reading this post my friend🙏❤️.

43 Comments

  1. Great post! Also, those are cool songs (and I’m not a hip-hop fan by any means). Sorry you lost so much of your blogger audience. We live in clown world, for sure.

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  2. The road to hell is paved with good intentions. I am glad you have started seeing the inversion of reality as the ego deceives the masses. Lefties are the anti-thesis of woke!

    “Nobody is more hated than he who speaks the Truth.” Plato

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  3. I am glad you are putting your trust in God. There are so many injustices in the world. All we can do is try to love one another as God told us to do love your neighbor as yourself. In terms of your audience, I have had a work order with WordPress for a very long time, as my like Button often doesn’t work and they told me this. There is an ongoing work order to try to take care of it. So you could be having some of the same problems I am. I am just happy to be part of the community and have learned to except the number of life‘s that I have and be grateful for them. I do think it is tricky for many published authors to get into deep concerning X conspiracy theories and politics, this isn’t necessarily the place for that. The edge of humanity is a magazine that will print political pieces as long as you have the source material foot noted. Happy Easter my friend, sending you lots of love and hugs. Stay safe and blessings to you. Love ❤️ Joni

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    1. Thanks. Joni. I think my likes and views have dropped since I changed my topic focus but that’s ok by me. I realize I was hypnotized by narcissism, but that’s what my previous audience could relate to not the truther information. People don’t want to hear about doom and gloom. Writing for an audience that are already red-pilled seems like preaching to the choir but I understand your suggestion. I think I’ve said most of what I needed to already so I’ll probably slow down on posting or perhaps stop. I can’t force my audience to like my posts! :). Thanks Joni ❤️

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      1. Well I applaud you for heading towards where God leads you as that is what we can do as believers. Luke 6:27-28
        “But I say to you who hear, love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, and pray for those who mistreat you.”

        I would never encourage you to stop blogging my friend. Sending you lots of love and praying for blessings for you and your family this Good Friday. ❤️🤗🙏🤗❤️

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      2. Thank you my friend🙏. I thought you were offering helpful advice I didn’t take what you wrote any other way but I think you’re right, WP is better for other topics but I’m stubborn. :).

        I’ve always loved the Bible verse you shared and I’ll try to love the haters ❤️🤗💖🙏🌸!

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      3. You are welcome. I am glad you must have been reading my mind. Everyone has a right to write what ever they want. I guess I am so grateful to be part of something so special this community that I am careful not to offend. I write about my religious beliefs because they are so important to me. I am glad you took what I said in the right way. I wrote some pieces for an anthology about social injustice and it felt so good to have a venue to write about some of those feelings. I was blessed to have the opportunity to write. I listened to a group of writers on Lisa Tomey’s site and I was moved to tears. There are venues where people can be heard. Blessings to you my friend. Happy Easter and if we could all work on loving those we don’t necessarily like that much we wouldn’t be looking at a potentially World War again. Love you, Joni ❤️

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      4. It’s good to find community on WP. I’m lucky to have an audience at all :), I can’t talk about issues with anyone else but in my platform here. Maybe things will change when I move out of CA. I think wars only benefit the leaders who start them and they only benefit while making us kill each other. I think most people want to do the right thing but are easily manipulated, I know I was for at least 30 yrs! Yikes, but better late than never 🙂. Have a blessed day my friend💖

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  4. It is very hard to admit what we once believed was not the truth. The ego always believes it is right.

    The complete problem with our world today is the prideful belief we are right without questioning our beliefs..

    But the bible’s wisdom of pride goes before destruction is the truth. And the truth will set you free, but first it will piss you off!!

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    1. Thanks, Socrates. True, the Ego is a powerful delusional, lie that’s covered in false packaging. Truth did set me free, it was horrifying but it makes everything crystal clear. Righteous anger is totally appropriate. If only people knew.

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  5. You take us on your journey like a friend, the honesty and authenticity is beautifully wrapped in a humble grace. It’s a powerful message Judy. Never mind the likes and follows. It only takes one soul redeemed by the inspiration you share to make the journey worth while. I thank you for your good example and sharing with us that the journey to wisdom has been anything but easy. We are not here to be the example of perfection but by our perseverance we are returned to the light and saved and by our example, we save others who would also seek the light. Let your voice be heard by those who know to listen.

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    1. Thank you, Dan for appreciating, reading and your awesome comments. I guess it’s been a refining process too, my remaining audience is the best, most supportive group of kindred friends who whether they agree with me or not, they’re still supportive of my intention. What a journey it’s been.

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      1. I think we must really understand why we must return to God’s light before we can see the necessity clearly. It is fraught with the false teachers in the video and the PC agenda. The more evil Satan’s presence in our lives become, the more we see the need for an honest relationship with ourselves, our world, and our God. You are there now and your voice is meant to be heard.

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      2. Thank you, Dan. I hope we return to seeing reality as it is and not as it’s promoted. I think suffering is a difficult but effective teacher that will force people to wake up to the manipulation of evil doers in charge.

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      3. Yes, sadly you are right. I always said I wanted to learn from success rather than failure but nothing shows us our limits or the best way forward than failures that have a sharp bite.

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      4. That’s very true Judy. Finding a greater purpose that lifts us up to our great potential and yet fulfilling that purpose with a humble nature is a noble cause.

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  6. All that matters is that you have come back to the truth that is our Lord Jesus Christ. I am deeply happy for you that you are now found. From one believer to another, may God continue to bless you.

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  7. I have appreciated your posts since I started following you, no matter the topic. It’s amazing that we can have thousands of followers on our blog and have a handful of likes for our posts. Stay encouraged on your mission to bring light into this dark world.
    Romans 8:31 What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?
    God is with you always, my friend 🙏🏽💖✝️

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    1. Thank you, Sylvester 💖 I appreciate your support and friendship very much. Great verse❤️ God is with you too, my friend always there for you 🙏💖✝️

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  8. Wonderful post, as always! Coming from someone who never cared about likes or follows, I do not see decreased numbers as problematic for your blog. You are writing from the heart which I think is far more worthy than writing for numbers or money. It’s hard to explain but as an HSP, the chaotic global energy seems to be strangling my motivation for so many things. Everything seems to take so much more time…and coupled with increased distractions, it’s overwhelming so I engage less and less with tech — including WP. So, not visiting is not due to your change in focus; your blog is a compendium of you. No matter what you choose to write about, or how, I know it’s sincere and all that matters. Love and warm wishes to you on this journey of life —

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    1. Thank you WG. I like how articulate you are, you’ve summed up my WP shift very well. As a fellow HSP I can relate to your response to the political chaos around us; it’s good to unplug from the noise. I take breaks too. I felt like it’s a boxing match, I pause and then go back into the ring but I’m exhausted. Not getting views or likes does make me question if I should stop expending my energy, there’s even a Bible verse warning to not throw “pearls to swine” (wasted message to deaf ears that might possibly even attack). I’ve been amazed at how relevant scripture is to today’s environment. Thank you for seeing through to my intention and sincerity. I’m fortunate to have a connection with you my friend.

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  9. Some things are worth questioning. I have a co-worker whose son is starting the process to apply to university. Despite her son being a top student she told him just be happy wherever you end up- state university etc. She is trying to let him understand that as an Asian male things are more difficult these days. Many unis don’t care about test scores these days. Extra activities may not matter. I think Hollywood should represent our country in every respect including politics. I stopped obsessing about followers and likes so much after I started. Some of the people who rapidly ascend in followers are young and good looking. They plaster their picture all over their posts. I guess advertisers like that. Quality of content or blogs not following a formula are not gaining as others.

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    1. So many rapid changes in schools and life. I hope the unfair admissions will be corrected, merit shouldn’t be penalized specifically Asians are targeted. I hope my child goes to a trade school not college to be honest, college seems like a liberal indoctrination institution nowadays. Yes social media is geared to favor young and beautiful “influencers”, content that’s shallow seems to be preferred. I used to have validation when I posted victimhood memoir and meraphysical/Buddhist poetry but I’m glad I stopped going in that direction.

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      1. There’s nothing wrong with the trades. The trades can many times make more that many college grads. I know of a young man who learned plumbing and heating and works for a company. Then he took business courses as a way to help himself when he eventually starts his own business.

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      2. I agree, I was an English major and history minor. In English I learned to BS and regurgitate what my professor taught but it was their subjective opinion. I suppose that’s what they wanted, not original thought.

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