I’m still experiencing vertigo, time conversation adjustment and a bit of heat exhaustion. I’m taking a break from unpacking boxes, and I’m feeling a bit down today. I guess the excitement and drama of moving has settled down and I’m reflecting on my migration. I joined Nextdoor, a site to connect with local neighborhoods and to my dismay I found many witch and pagan groups listed for San Antonio with thousands of members 🥺😞. I guess the pagans are everywhere, not just in commie California. Texas isn’t a perfect conservative sanctuary, but I still don’t regret coming here. There’s no perfect place—clown world is everywhere.
Moving from an urban environment to a suburban one is the hardest part of this move so far, I can deal with the 100 degree weather but I feel stuck at home without a car. I’ve made an appointment to get a Texas driver’s license but it seems like a process, the earliest time is set for sometime in August! There’s another approximate 30 minutes + wait time upon arrival ugh! What’s the point of making an appt? I hate bureaucracy. I tried to get a CA license a month ago but was failed 3x during the road test. I honestly think it was a scam (failing me) in order to make revenue because I’m not a bad driver. I had an expired driver’s license in MD, I know how to drive probably better then many licensed drivers. Oh well. They require a driving school course in Texas, I hope the road test isn’t another scam experience.
Sorry to be so gloomy! Life’s feeling heavy today and my enthusiasm has dimmed. I haven’t heard back from the potential job I mentioned either—but I didn’t really want to work at a liquor store anyway, (it happened to be within walking/biking distance, that was my main incentive). I think the owner wanted someone who could do deliveries (but I can’t without a car) and I think my literary resume showed that I was over qualified. Maybe he thought I was too uppity to be working at a liquor store? Good riddance.
Well I’m going on a trip to visit my family next month so I’m taking a break from looking for a job until I return. I’m excited to see my dad, my brother and sister and attending church with them. I’ve changed so much, I used to dread family visits, (because I wasn’t Christian anymore I felt like I stood out and so I avoided them) what a jerk I was! Retrospect is tragic genius. Family is the most important relationship that we have on this earth, I have so many regrets but at least I realized this in time. What a flip flop life I’ve lived.
I left California because of the crazy politics, I was fired from my job at Oakland Public Library for not complying to their vaccine mandate and I desperately wanted to protect my son from the deadly mRNA shots at school, (unvaxxed—he would’ve had to attend “remote learning” again which is a kind of social isolation hell for children). He used to be very outgoing with many friends before the schools shut down in CA. I feel so angry that they did this to him and his friends. He lost about 2 years! of in-person learning and all of his previous friends. I pray that Texas is a sanctuary from all of that but I feel a little worried to be honest. Please God, let Texas be a place of sanity and medical freedom.
This is why I left, the Hotel Vaxifornia (the singer’s a bit tone deaf haha but the lyrics are spot on):